So I’m on the hunt for a new job. I’m not sure what that perfect job is just yet. I know, I know, there is no perfect job. It’s important to find the right fit though, ya know? I have done lots of things since entering the workforce 20 years ago. I’ve done the big corporate thing and traveled all over delivering various types of training courses. I’ve tried my hand in the non-profit world and in smaller businesses. Marketing was my thing for about 4 years. And the weird (or maybe sad) thing is I’m pretty decent at all of these things, but I still am not really sure what my “thing” is. I love nutrition, but I don’t have a nutrition degree. So should I go back to school? Ugh. I’m 35 years old and I’m still clueless about my life!
I have to say that looking for a job is somewhat entertaining though. I mean it’s annoying, but the titles that these companies come up with for their open positions are VERY VERY funny. For example, a Nutrition Aide sounds decent, right? It’s not. It’s actually a cafeteria lady. Yep. And a lot of them include the word Specialist to make it sound more appealing. It usually turns out to be very un-special however. Like “Experience Specialist” which is code for talking on the phone all day to upset customers. Which, yes, would be an experience. A shitty one.
Michael Pollan who is like THE foodie intellectual today said (when talking about how to eat), “Eat food. Not too much of it.” And I think that same type of thinking should apply to working. Work hard. Not too much. I mean that seems like a good plan. Find something you love and do it, but not so much that you end up hating it. Not so much that you don’t do anything else. I know that may sound like a very liberal view to my fellow Americans since we live in a country that is all about working lots of hours. People are so proud to be like, “I’m so busy! I’ve been working like 60 hours a week.” That is so sad to me and not even remotely impressive. I like the guy or gal that works smart and has figured out a way to live with less so they don’t have to devote every waking second to earning more money. Those are the people that impress the shit out of me.
So, the job hunt will continue. I’m sure I’ll find something. And one day I hope to be doing something that I really love and impressing the pants off of every single one of you. Bam!
So last time I blogged I was all like, “things have to change.” And guess what? They have! I mean I wasn’t expecting the change, but it happened, and so I’m embracing it. The job I was doing day in and day out that was as my sister said, “crushing my soul” is over. And you know what? My soul feels infinitely lighter. I guarantee you my cortisol levels have plummeted as well.
Obviously the loss of one of the loves of my life is still there. There will always be a piece of me missing in some way because of that loss. Now I feel like I have the ability to honor her though. I want the choices I make, big and small, to be choices that Stevie can look down on and say, “Good job, Aunt Sonie.”
Last Friday Rob and I took our nephew to a campout at Red Butte Garden. I literally had to pick Dylan up 20 minutes after the news of losing my job. Of course, I tried my best to hold it together, but I was a bit emotional. Can I just tell you how great Dylan made me feel though? Leave it to an 11 year old. Not only did he say how sorry he was that I lost my job many times throughout the weekend but he also thought up new jobs. It turns out he feels very strongly that I should work at Game Stop. Yes, the video game store. It took everything in me to not completely crack up. Instead I was like, “Well, I don’t really like video games very much.” Dylan assured me that it didn’t matter and that it is “the easiest job ever.” The kid is dead serious. If I don’t want to work at Game Stop, option number two was Subway. Subway was my first job nearly 20 years ago. I think I’ll try for something else.
How lucky I am to have Dylan and others in my life who lift me up and remind me what this life is all about. Here’s to my next adventure and making Stevie proud!
I really want a vacation. Rob really needs a vacation. We’re not going on vacation anytime soon. What it really comes down to though is that perhaps, just perhaps, we’re not enjoying the regular ol’ days that are quickly passing us by. And yes, it is really difficult to do so when your job is sucking all of the energy and life out of you.
At the beginning of 2012 Rob and I created a “memory jar” so that we can capture all the big and small happy moments we enjoy throughout the year. So far there are 4 in the jar. Not because we haven’t had good times and happy moments but because we haven’t taken the time to recognize them. That’s about to change. This jar is about to get worked!