So last time I blogged I was all like, “things have to change.” And guess what? They have! I mean I wasn’t expecting the change, but it happened, and so I’m embracing it. The job I was doing day in and day out that was as my sister said, “crushing my soul” is over. And you know what? My soul feels infinitely lighter. I guarantee you my cortisol levels have plummeted as well.
Obviously the loss of one of the loves of my life is still there. There will always be a piece of me missing in some way because of that loss. Now I feel like I have the ability to honor her though. I want the choices I make, big and small, to be choices that Stevie can look down on and say, “Good job, Aunt Sonie.”
Last Friday Rob and I took our nephew to a campout at Red Butte Garden. I literally had to pick Dylan up 20 minutes after the news of losing my job. Of course, I tried my best to hold it together, but I was a bit emotional. Can I just tell you how great Dylan made me feel though? Leave it to an 11 year old. Not only did he say how sorry he was that I lost my job many times throughout the weekend but he also thought up new jobs. It turns out he feels very strongly that I should work at Game Stop. Yes, the video game store. It took everything in me to not completely crack up. Instead I was like, “Well, I don’t really like video games very much.” Dylan assured me that it didn’t matter and that it is “the easiest job ever.” The kid is dead serious. If I don’t want to work at Game Stop, option number two was Subway. Subway was my first job nearly 20 years ago. I think I’ll try for something else.
How lucky I am to have Dylan and others in my life who lift me up and remind me what this life is all about. Here’s to my next adventure and making Stevie proud!